Looking with fresh eyes

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Hey thanks for listening to Episode 1 of the god of honeybees podcast. I'm recording this in my work truck on the side of the road at a job site. So I've tried to make it as quiet as possible but you're going to end up here in cars drive by. What I want to do on this first episode is try to explain the name of the show. I want to explain what you can expect from the future episodes and then where to start for episode 1. So the name of the podcast The God of honeybees. This is also the title of my book. The book takes a close look at my personal understanding of the religion that I grew up in some of the problems that I feel are kind of built into it. What this means for our place in the world and how consciousness relates to all of this. So I guess I should say it's an overview of these things is by no means exhaustive but what I aim to do is once it's complete I'm going to have it on here chapter by chapter so it's basically an audio book that's just going to be freely available on this podcast. So keep an eye out for that down the road but I'll of course mention it when it's getting close. What to expect for future episodes. It's kind of within this is this along the same line as what's going to be in the book. These these episodes are meant to take a close look at. I guess I would say that our true nature what what we really are how we relate to the world because I think that this really informs the way that we ought to move through the world. So I've got a couple episodes already coming down the pipe that have to do with how we think about input simulation how we lengthen the time between. Stimulus and response meditations. All that kind of stuff. This is the kind of thing you can expect down the road. So for episode 1 what I wanted to do was start with a question because one of my favorite things to do is deconstruct an idea completely so that you can see all its parts because only then at least personally do I feel like I can make an informed decision about the concept. And if there's any bullshit involved you're going to find out only by deconstructing it and exposing all the parts. So that's what I've really been aiming to do with these future episodes. But the future episodes Ami presenting an idea to you what I want to do is start out on the right foot and in the spirit of ongoing learning and questioning. I want to get your opinion. I want to start by asking instead of telling. So here's what I'm curious about. Lately I've been listening to a lot of old recorded talks by Krishnamurti and at one point he said he explained this idea about looking at anything and you give an object a tree a car the road a house whatever and learning to look at it without using words or categories or paradigms and what he's saying is that one only by doing this can you truly look at something see it for what it truly is because words paradigms categories these kinds of things cloud your perception of it. Once you are able to look at something like that without ascribing all these things to it you can truly see what it is. The line between observer and observed dissolves and you can start to see something as if you've seen it for the first time and the way that this really resonated with me was I was thinking about relationships. So you know spouse significant other family member when we interact with them say like I don't know say you see your dad every morning or something or your mom every morning or his spouse or whatever. When you first see them if you look at them in this same way and don't ascribe their past actions their past words all of this background history to them you don't ascribe any of that to them. And if you go a step further and don't ascribe name or gender or category or anything like that to them I feel like this is kind of the definition of a forgiving heart. Like you're just looking at them at the beginning of the day for what they are that day. And I think that's awesome. I think because then you can really see their their posture. I don't mean physical I mean like emotional mental posture what their intention is for that day. Like you can really soak up the wholeness of what that person is at that moment. And that's awesome. But what I'm wondering about is let's say let's say a woman is in a relationship with someone that is let's say physically or emotionally abusive. Right. It's wonderful if she can let's say greet her spouse in the morning without any kind of category or background history ascribed to that person. Right. Because it's like starting the day from a fresh slate. But. Obviously how does she go about finding the balance between not holding this person accountable is not the right word not looking at this person through the lens of all this background action in history and not willfully walking into more abuse. Like how do you learn from the past without grasping the past. How can she make room for this person for her spouse to be different on this day or grow or be a different being a different kind of emotional mental posture. How can you make room for possibility for the possibility for anything to happen while not exposing yourself to abuse or getting walked over trampled on because it's one thing to not hold the current moment to the past. But it's another thing to not even think about the past. So this is what I'm curious about and I would really like to know what your thoughts are because this podcast. I want it to be like a conversation. It's just you and me talking about these things. So thankfully where this podcast is hosted on anchor if you get the app you can leave a voice message on there which I can obviously listen to respond to. Or you could just leave a comment. That's fine too but I'm really curious about what your thoughts might be on this topic because while I love this idea of looking with fresh eyes that everything each day I can't seem to solve this problem of what to do in you know like say that hypothetical scenario I'm talking about how do you find that balance. How do you learn and grow and move forward whilst not exposing yourself to undue abuse. I guess undue abuse is a bit is a bit of a pointless phrase out without exposing yourself to abuse. If you've enjoyed the episode brief episode introductory episode please leave me a voice message on anchor or comment or on Instagram at god of BS podcast so I can know what what your thoughts are because I want to craft this episode and the future episodes as a conversation between me and you so we can we can together create the direction that this podcast is going to go. I've got some ideas I want to run by you more fully fleshed out episodes but I want it to be a back and forth. I want to know what you think. So drop me a message on anchor let me know what you think. Hit me up on Instagram. If you follow me on there I'm going to be posting little blurbs and and ideas for how to move through each day. Thanks for listening.